Brain hurts...blag

So I'm in the middle of applying to medical school for the second time and I really don't feel as experienced in it as I wish I did (I mean considering I've gone through the process before.)

Every year the application changes and they want information presented differently, or even new information all together. It's a very time consuming process as I try to put my best foot forward- because while the application is a angry hoop jumping fiasco relatively simple process it means so much to me.

Since I was a little girl I dreamed about being a doctor. For quite a while I wanted to be a burn/plastic surgeon (not so sure about that now). So as I'm filling in the application I get these floods of emotions. When I consider the possibility that I could get in this year elation come pouring in, then I consider another rejection and I feel sick to my stomach. I desperately hope every comment I write is interpreted in the spirit it was written by the admissions committee. Uncharacteristic of my general personality, substantial amounts of contempt arise in me when I come across people who seem to be of the opinion that its easy to get into medical school. And anyone with a cavalier attitude towards their own application frankly infuriates me. I have fought really hard for my application to have the high points that it does and the less the shiny points of my application reflect some of my most devastating personal struggles. I hope those who seem to have less emotion invested in their medical school applications are just being guarded towards revealing the strength of their desire because the idea that someone who "just thinks it would be fun" getting in over someone who is fiercely passionate is enough to make my head spin.

To my fiercely passionate comrades out there- good luck! But don't take my spot :P

For those who are interested, I recently got my MCAT scores back and I scored 4 points better this round! I'm cautiously thrilled. It's still no 40+ but hopefully it will be enough to make the difference this year. I still feel like I could do better on the MCAT but studying for a test whose material was presented to me around 7 years ago and caring for my kids is a significant obstacle- I hope admissions committee members get that.

Anyway, that's my rant for now- I gotta get back at it! Comment! All the cool people are doing it :P Lame, I know but I do like comments.

Shoot I forgot I had Another Blog!

... Just kidding :P

I've been fighting that bloggers guilt for quite some time. Life has gotten away from me.

I wrote in MCAT Aug.17th... it was epic. My impressions? "Man alive! I hope I did better than I did last time!" We'll see in about a months time.

So I'm in full swing applying for medical school, again. After writing the MCAT in Edmonchuck I starting to prepare myself for the idea of applying in Edmonton- cause if I were to get in you betcha we're movin'! I still feel lost in Edmonton but that's what you get for visiting once every 5 years or so.





I'm also doing photography like a mad woman- but it's awesome. Finished a wedding- it was an amazing experience. We had a good day found a wonderful location for pictures and the couple are just warm people. I'm a sucker for weddings even when they're stresswad central but this was such a great experience for me. Here's a taste.. for more check out my photography blog Glowing Photography

Oh and I have a super awesome photography sale of greatness! You should message me for the details... because its a secret sale :D I'm almost all booked though so don't delay!!!

This month I also finished tutoring my fab Math students. I'm happy to report that they passed! One actually did pretty darn well. I'm kinda sad to see them go, they brought routine to my life and a reason to clean my house every Thursday morning. I'm now looking for new clients in the tutoring department. I have a kijij ad called I tutor it! 'Cause in reality if its a class you can take before post-secondary chances are I can tutor it and have likely tutored it before :) I love seeing people achieve. It's literally heart warming, education really changes peoples lives. Especially my upgrading alumni who are in a way looking to prove to themselves that they can do it, they really have inspired me to have a better attitude about learning and what a privilege- no blessing- it is that I have the education I do. PS. thanks to everyone who has ever contributed to a scholarship fund.

So yeah that's what I've been doing during this radio silence... I have soo many things I could blog about... lately I've been really into art and design so I feel a project coming on...or maybe I should just finish some old ones. Oh and I've been watch/reading more third wave feminism stuff and its so worth talking about but those will need to wait for another time.

Leave comments! 'Cause they make me feel less like I'm talking to myself... maybe I should make a vlog... then I would really be talking to myself... might wake the baby though...hmmm